LOVE CHAOS

2002-09-13T04:50:00.000-07:00

A WORD ON THE WORLD

Whats this world comming too? war, atomic bombs, biolgical weapons. What the hell?. The human races biggest threat of extinction iis itself. We are the biggest threat to this planet. We elect man to be in control, men to do their duty to their country. But we give tthese man alot of power. And we the likes of BUSH, and not just bush, but other world leaders. We should all be affraid. Men like this are puppets, puppets of higher people, which History tells us that this men, if threated, will react with amazing power. The world is so blind, the president of the untied states is blind. Dont you people see, WAR IS NOT A RESPONSE, WAR IS NOTHING TO BE PROUD OF, WAR IS NOT PREOTECTING PEOPLE. WAR IS DEATH, IT'S VIOLENCE, ITS SIMPLE THE TYPICAL AGE OLD STORY OF A SINGLE MAN TRYING TO PUSH HIS WAY TO THE TOP. Exactly the same this in the playground, where the boys work there way up the social ladder, the same in the work. Our current world is shaped by a man, pushing his way to the top, 'who has the biggest penis?' or should i say 'which country has the most firepower?' BUSH is a BOY. A boy dangerously in control of too much. A few words for thought.
Dont misundertsand me please, Im not against the USA, Im just agaisnt the decissions made by its president, the decisions that effect us, our children, the future genertations. The animals of this planet, and lets not forget. ITS THIER WORLD TOO

2002-09-13T04:36:00.001-07:00

MAKING DECISIONS
iim still not able to make such a decision, family and friends or love?. To weigh up the goods and bads, doesnt help too much, because love seems so much heavier than the rest. I guess everyone is different in there own ways, some people prefer coffee over tea, others, drugs over alchole, me - i like to live it all - but when it comes to a choice as serious as this, i really have no idea. I think, by publishing this on the internet it might, or someone might over some advice. If not, its still good to 'write everything down', no correction - in our modern world who even writes anymore, everythings about typing and those clicking skills. YOU! are you finger clicking happy?.
What is it with people and there X's?. Tonight im having dinner with my lover and THE X. Im happy ive been invited, but im sure the X doesnt know that yet. But im going, to mark out my territory, i think ill take a sign '' MY PROPERTY'' or '' CURRENTLY UNAVAILABLE'' and hang it on my lovers neck. Maybe im just over reacting to a harmless situation. But ive had problems in the past with this X, and im not looking forward to another. Not while Im trying to make up my mind and spend my life here.
Decisions Decisions, what life doesnt have them? Let me know if a life like this excists. Actually, on second thoughts, a life with decisions in a diffcult but interesting life, a life of freedom and liberty!!

2002-09-13T04:36:00.000-07:00

2002-09-12T10:45:00.000-07:00

What is love? Is there just one person out there for all of us?. Im starting this Blog, as a way of expressing myself and my feelings, truthfully. I hope, those of you who read it, might understand. Im always open to give and recieve advice.
Let me begin this with a little personel information. Im 18 years old and Ive been living in belgium for 8 months now, with another 4 to go. Time passes too quick doesnt it?. 7 months ago, almost to the day i met someone very special, a belgian who i feel belongs too me. I havnt had all that much experience in the world of 'dating' as its just my second partner. Never the less, i feel as though I found some thing special. Before, i wasnt even sure if i beleived in love. Now, i dont only just believe in love, Ive FOUND love, Im in Love, Im..... speechless. At 18, am i lucky or just naive?.
This brings me to my problems, what am I to do in 4 months when i return to Australia. If you travel alot, or if its been a long time since you've seen your family, you'll know what i feel like about returning home. But cross this, with finding love in a country on the other side of the world, and things can get a little crazy inside your head. Im on the verse of making a decsion, but im scared. Im scared to leave my lover. To do this, would be turning my back on love. Im scared to stay here, and start a life just with my partner. Im scared of being alone. How can anyone make such a decision, LOVE or FAMILY. MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS or MY LOVER.
People say ' If its true love, it will last the distance' or things like this, but ive heard it all before, and lets be realistic. Honnestly, if i were to leave, finish my studies at university, return 5 years later with a degree... Would love still excist between us?.
TOO MANY QUESTIONS, yes i know, i know.